Day 37

I had a good weekend. I am down another couple pounds since Friday, weighing in at 227.2. In total, I've lost 32.4 pounds. So I'm beginning to head back in the right direction I think. The day-to-day changes can be pretty brutal when you don't lose anything for a long streak of days. There have been a couple of times when I've seriously thought of throwing in the towel, but so far I've managed to stick it out.
I'm not sure exactly how I've managed to keep my head in the game for this... Honestly this last week has sucked pretty hard. Cravings have been elevated, hunger has been elevated, and it's been difficult to keep my focus on my goal. I thought that after the half-way point things would get easier, but I think they have gotten harder. Being around food has become increasingly difficult as well. Though I still enjoy the smells, the thought of eating is hounding me pretty hard. When you're not cutting a lot of weight, the hunger pangs cause you to question: "why am I doing this again??"

Thankfully, I'm stubborn and pretty determined, so this hasn't derailed me. Motivation is key. If I didn't have good motives for what I'm doing, I'm sure I would've quit a long time ago. It's hard work, and nobody enjoys working without pay. I want to see a daily paycheck on my scale reinforcing my efforts, but this isn't reality. Weight loss is really inconsistent, and I have to be patient and put my feelings in check.

So the struggle continues, but I'm head-strong. Apparently systematically (and safely) near-starving yourself isn't easy. No surprises there... The battle wages on.

1 Corinthians 10:31

English Standard Version (ESV)

³¹ So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.

~Until tomorrow.