Day 5

Not all division is bad. No, I'm not talking about my daughter's homework. I'm referring to division that happens in our lives.
Many aspects of our lives can contain division, and this is rarely anything comfortable. At the moment, my body feels divided against itself.

Last night was pretty rough. The culprit of most of the strife that fasting can cause an individual appears to me to be rendered by the body's blood sugar level. I took a lesson in this yesterday. Jesse and I made the planned trip to Costco yesterday evening and re-stocked my supply of vegetation. I had taken my last pre-made juice at 3:30, and by the time the evening meal hour was on me, I was on my way to Costco. It was certain to be at least another several hours before I could get home to juice more, and I began to feel the subtle loss of energy through even small exertion that occurs when I go too long with nothing on my stomach.

We made our way through Costco and filled the cart with each of the sacraments I would later sacrifice on the Jack LaLanne alter. By the time we left, after standing in a long line at the register, and getting scolded at the exit by the cart checker for apparently having one too many mangos in my mango box (she took my mango-- I was perturbed at this, and then just laughed), we made our way to the car.

From the beginning of the fast, I have stocked myself with half gallon containers of Naked Juice's 'Green Machine' as a cheap insurance policy to my success in this venture to be tapped in times when the day gets away from me and I need quick access to sustenance. This was one of those times, and in the car I proceeded to re-affirm my consistence with a few ounces of the Hulk Juice.

About an hour later I began to feel myself again, and then I was home, and it was time to juice. I have began to enjoy the daily ritual of juicing. I turn some music on, take out my favorite paring knife and get to work on about 20 minutes of peeling to maintain the next day's supply. Somehow this time has become a welcome refuge containing reassurance of my ability to get through one more day as I make my preparations.

But it is interesting... Division. How one's body can become essentially divided against itself. For me, this division has been positive. I have trimmed fourteen pounds to date after only 4 full days of fasting. This astounds and encourages me. However, it does come at a price. Many things in life it seems require division for fruit to be present (my ails require fruit for division to be present, ironically). I think it is God's way of breaking us from our routines and getting us onto His path for our health. Though my body may cry to me at points, my will is unfaltering. I am determined and I see my path set before me to trod, despite circumstances and challenges. At the end of this path, I know that there is a healthier me, and the affects of this realization are inspirational.

To date, this blog has been read by individuals in 4 countries. Collectively, they have accessed it 123 times. The blog has been up for two full days now. I am so encouraged at the response from the world, and from my immediate community as well. Friends and family alike have poured out their support for my 'quest for thin-ness'. How awesome. Thank you all for your support and encouragement!

So maybe... Just maybe, in the midst of division, there actually can exist a cumulative "jelling". My temporary discomfort is in the long-term extremely beneficial to me, and in the short term I have hopefully encouraged 123 people in 4 countries... In two days (the blog was posted two days ago). That's good stuff. Wind in my sails for sure!

Thought for the day:

Luke 12: 49-53 (quoting Jesus)

"I came to send fire on the earth, and how I wish it were already kindled! But I have a baptism to be baptized with, and how distressed I am till it is accomplished! Do you suppose that I came to give peace on earth? I tell you, not at all, but rather division. For from now on five in one house will be divided: three against two, and two against three. Father will be divided against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law".


Until tomorrow friends.